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SO AFTER FIVE YEARS OF DOING THIS BIKE RIDE WE ARE CALLING IT QUITS THIS YEAR. THERE ARE MANY REASONS BUT KEEP BIKING FOR MENTAL HEALTH AWARENESS.

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SO WE ARE NOT GOING TO BE DOING OUR BIKE RIDE BUT WE ARE KEEPING THIS SITE UP. THERE COULD STILL BE SOME GOOD FOR PEOPLE TO SEE WHAT WE HAVE TO SAY. WHEN GOD CLOSES ONE DOOR HE OPENS ANOTHER AND WE ARE PATIENTY WAITING TO SEE WHAT THAT IS GOING TO BE. BUT ABOVE ALL WE WANT TO KEEP PEOPLE TALKING ABOUT MENTAL ILLNESS, THIS ILLNESS IS NOT SOMETHING YOU “GET OVER” IT IS SOMETHING THAT CAN BE MANAGED. YOU ARE NOT ALONE IF YOU ARE READING THIS AND HAVE BEEN DEALING WITH DEPRESSION/SUICIDE/PTSD/ANXIETY. WE ARE STILL HERE FOR YOU AND YOUR JOURNEY.

SO, I WRITE POEMS ABOUT MY LIFE AND EVERYTHING INVOLVED. THIS ONE POEM IS ONE FROM TODAY CELEBRATING A END TO 14 YEARS OF PSYCH COUNCELING.

DON’T GIVE UP   6/3/2022

I know this seems easy to say

But I tell you the truth

Took 14 years

Week after week

Many time I did give up

Through it all I have learned this lesson

I feel I can say this being in the “shoes”

For 14 years the Lord tore my life apart

I can not say anything in my life

Is in any way the same

I go through major depressive disorder, anxiety and borderline personality disorder

I went through cutting, death and thoughts better not written

I trusted the Lord even when I fought him

My vice was cutting and suicide

I never thought I would make the day

Everything had to go wrong

To start going right

Had holes in my heart

Could not have kids

Now I sit Natalie carver

Always felt alone even being married

I never thought this would heal

But I am proud to say the Lord prevailed

Worried about mike but talked to my mom

She helped me see though I had been left

I have my mom, dad and sister

I now really feel loved

I know feel I am on my feet

No more psych wards

No more cutting my leg open with razors

No more stitches for scar tissue

I can wear my scars proud

I have overcome

I have learned

I have accepted

I am eternally thankful

God sent Ron Hougen

And I finally learned

Back in 2008 saw Gregory Tjossem

He saw then that Ron Hougen and Jason Maret

Were two people I would end up needing

It was a grueling 14 years

Tears, pills, razors, defeat, loneliness, depression, anger, anxiety

That’s just the top of things

Now the 3rd of June I walked out of therapy for the last time

I have learned to love especially me